Hi everyone.  My challenge is to give myself a good kick in the pants and finally get off the weight loss, weight gain merry-go-round.  I've always been active and fit.  Even after giving birth to two beautiful daughters in my twenties, I regained my pre-pregnancy shape within months.  I was approached during an excercise class and asked if I would like to be a fitness model.  I had a "six pack" at 45.  Then my life flipped upside down.  In 2007, first my Mom had a stroke, then my Dad, my hero was diagnosed with cancer.  Instead of going to the gym, I spent time with my parents.  I also worked more than 60 hours a week at my two jobs.  Rock bottom came in November.  My [now] husband proposed on November 4th, and my Dad was rushed to the hospital on November 5th.  He died 19 days later and I will never forgot the overwhelming sense of loss at the moment of his passing.  I turned to comfort food, gave up excercising and "found" 30 pounds.  Atkins helped me slim down for our wedding in 2008, however the weight boomeranged back in no time.  I am now 50 years old and angry at myself for allowing myself to get to this point.  My challenge is to use this anger and stay committed until I reach my goal.  And to remain committed AFTER I reach my goal.  I want to be healthy again.  I don't care if I see a "6 pack" again....sorry I'm lying.  I WANT to see my muscles again.  I WANT to look smokin' hot in a bathing suit.  I WANT to make love to my husband without worrying about my squishy tummy.   And I WANT to be heart healthy and live a long an happy life, to enjoy my family and be a positive role model to my daughters.    50 will be my year, thanks to the support I receive from this site.    Best of luck to everyone out there.  Together, we can do this!!!